Whoa it has been so long since I blogged... can't really believe it myself I've been away so long. Here's a bunch of randoms thoughts...

But I have great news to share!

I'm getting published!!!!

Can't leak details yet but I will have 2 short story islamic Fiction published and three poems and 6-8 artworks published!!! YAY!

So that is what I have been working on the past few months. April saw the contest for 1 short story and a poem, May I worked on another short story (well two really but I couldn't finish the second in time) and two more poems. June has seen the emergence of an artist :D I've been working hard at designing some black and white drawings (which is not an easy medium to work in).

I signed my first legal Publishing forms yesterday and gotta get them into the mail this week. YAY!

Sometimes I enjoy those milestones where I sign my name at the bottom line...getting my own bank account, my own apartment, marriage contract, passports for my children, publishing deals. There is just an immense satisfaction in writing my name at the end of months of work.

On the personal side of things, I'm working on completing a long to-do list that I promised myself I would complete BEFORE I try to open my own business. Seems the time is ripe for having my own shop and researching for this business is way down on the bottom of my list. I don't want to overwhelm myself with too much stuff which is why I made myself this promise. When the check list is completed only then will I take the plunge. It's not necessarily a hard list with items like :
Sort and file papers that are cluttered in the book shelf.
Sort out the medicines (which have been stuffed in bags and piled up for years) and I just finished this chore yesterday.
Wean my son.

He's almost at the two lunar year mark and I gotta figure out a strategy to wean him without it being torment for either of us. He's so severely attached ever since i tried to wean him back in April. But I cannot be trying to make business deals with a toddler trying to undo my jilbab, not at all professional eh?

So slowly I'm getting there....

I made this month's chart for my daughter long ago for her Homeschooling and it has the names of the month vertically listed with a season symbol next to it. I made it back in December of last year. How far away June and July felt. With their bright yellow sun symbol. Even March,April,May with the raindrop symbol seemed ages, now they are gone. I have accomplished so many goals this year yet still I feel it's all moving too slow on the home front. I still struggle with my ADD everyday to get things done quickly and orderly. Nearly everything on my to-do-list has to do with my home. Because I don't feel I can be successful outside my home if the inside is chaos. So I'm still trying to Calm my chaos.

Today's chore will be going through the kid's toys and weeding out old ones they don't even look at anymore and donating them to charity.

I love PEZ Candy toys, they come in favorite characters my kids love like Tigger, Pooh, Pirates, Tinkerbell Fairies, and the best part is islamically they are good because they don't have bodies. they are hollow with just a head on top that opens. And they double to serve a special treat when the kids have been good, suddenly they will open the pez that has stood empty for ages and find candy inside...hehehe i love that game.

One of my friends is leaving the country soon and she gave me a lot of her children's toys and her daughter's clothes. her daughter is 8 and mine is 4 and I was so happy to get these hand me downs because they fit my daughter perfectly, masha'Allah she's so tall, and now I don't have to buy her new clothes for a long while. Maybe til next year.
Ah my daughter, what interesting things we've been up to. I've always tried to steer her to some tough sports like sword fighting, martial arts, but alas she has alas succumbed to the age old tradition of wanting to be a girlie pink ballerina dancer. *sigh* I'm loathing having purchased "The twelve dancing princesses" she suddenly become a barbie movie addict. But at least so far Barbie doesn't have lengthy kissing scenes like Disney does. I mean really have you ever realized how long or deeply Pocohontas is kissing John Smith before Kocoum comes to battle him? It's embarrassing! I'm like Sweetie, come tell me what this is and how it works (to any random toy in the room) to distract her from the movie scene. The barbie movie, after they got married it just showed them holding hands. Much better..... arg everytime they ask for a Disney movie I just feel I'm corrupting my children..... but I explain things along the way Islamically, like we don't do this, or this is not right to do, we don't dress like this (ala Jasmine, Pocohontas) etc.... it's so hard walking the line between cultures.
She's reading really well though. I'm so proud of her!

We are having a new schedule where their father takes one child with him to pick up his workers from the worksite so that leave me with quality one on one time with a child to enhance their bonding time and learning time. it's really been working out well. And boy is it calming to have one kid in the house again. I feel much better so that when the second child returns happy from their excursion with Baba I can warmly and honestly happily greet them.

Also more good news as of June, my husband quit his last job and was able to get a financial backer to open his own business. So now he's the boss with his own working hours, which has been weird to have him home so often but nice too. The kids are happy to have him around more too. Although on the slight downside I have to have the house more tidier than it used to be. Instead of letting them muck it up with their toys and doing a mass cleaning twice a day before Baba gets home I'm constantly having to pick things up as they knock them down... a little exasperating when I just wanna get through my to-do list but still... at least we get to see his kind face more... :D Also money has been even more tight without him having a boss to fall back on in times of need. So we are just struggling along making sure we have a roof over our heads and a food from each step of the food pyramid to eat everyday, well for our kids to eat everyday, we tend to miss a few steps everyday...but that is life, sacrificing for your children. Alhamduliallah.

My parents were worried because I haven't been bloggin for so long LOL. So Mom this update is for you too :)

So I'm doing overall pretty well. Some days better than others but still... I'm here and that is better than the alternative :D

As for all of those wonderful sisters waiting for me to add them to the All Muslimah Blog Directory, thank you for being patient, it's been crazy these last few months. I'm working on setting down a day to add everyone (en mass). So bare with me and keep checking out other sister's blog and supporting them.

I appreciate all the comments' I've gotten on my blog recently! masha'Allah. I apologise I don't get much time to comment back but I appreciate reading them and posting them for others to read.

For my beautiful sistas on Ivory Rouge, bare with me too hon, I'm trying to get time set aside again to get back into the blogging swing to read all your blogs again. I see sometimes titles you posted and it makes me smile but I haven't gotten the chance to get around to comment properly :( forgive me. Well that goes for all of you bloggers really too, I'm trying to find time to comment more. Fro some weird reason my PC shuts down access to certain blogs. Rudely the ones that are my favorites. ARG! So it takes ages to load and then get through the messed up graphics it loads and the error signs, then finally I get to read the post and then i gotta run off and do something before I get to comment.....pssshh the computer world is so crazy sometimes.

As if I didn't have enough stuff to do with my time, FaceBook has caught me and sucked me into it's depths. it's been nice meeting old acquaintances I knew from Tucson again, and meeting up with new people I know from writing, blogging, and the Islamic Writer's Alliance group (IWA) that I joined. You can add me under the name BRANDY AZ CHASE ... which is the new pen name I've decided to have, the AZ standing of course for Aminah-Zahira, my islamic name.

So that's what I've been up to recently and I had to just gush it out or it would never get said, I have dozens of post ideas waiting of the time to write them and post them but for now they must wait int eh back of my mind on my mental to-do list :p

Love ya All and miss going to your blogs.
Brandy AZ Chase ;) :D

10 intelligent thoughts:

Sacrifice4Allah said...

As Salaamu 'alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatu!

Its so lovely to have you back :) MashaALLAH you've been a busy. busy bee!Congratulations for getting published and for your husband opening his own business!! MashaAllah TabrakaAllah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May Allah make everything easy for you and your family and make you of the successful ones in dunya and in akhira. Ameen!

Your children sound adorable MashaALLAH TabarakaALLAH! May Allah protect them always. Ameen.

MashaALLAH Brandy you get soo many things done, i myself, take too long to get things done. Procrastination is from the shaytaan au'duBillah! Perhaps i should make a list aswell.

JazakiAllah khair for updating us!

P.S-I would love to read your work when it gets published inshaALLAH :)

wa Salaamu 'alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatu!

Mama Kalila said...

Congrats on being published!

Understood on the weaning thing... Our goal was to wean Kalila by 2... but at 21 months she's no where near ready to stop. Thankfully its not an issue for me though... At least not yet lol.

Btw I found your blog awhile back and bookmarked it on my wii... keep forgetting to transfer you over to my list... comps down now & I found you again lol. Need to do that because I enjoy reading your posts when I do.

Lisa said...

As Salaamu 'alaikum AMW,

Walahi it feels like opening a present today to come over here and see you doing so well Brandy. I smiled as I read about you're recent accomplishments.

On this day when husband left for Syria without saying goodbye to Youssef (yes, I'm such a silly worrywart!)

I want to say congrats first on the opening of your husband's businss and on you getting published! I would love to hear if the short story is the pirate one you were planning to enter previously habibty. Does it pay well too? Don't worry if you can't respond, I'm seriously just thinking out loud habibty. I know how time-consuming it is to return to comment, and I'd rather you spend the time out enjoying life!

I have been thinking of you a lot. Imagining you driving a car under the blazing sun with the kids. Going to Chili's like Desert Monsoon :) I heard that you have Six Flags there and wondered if it's an option? Then again, the kids are still little for it.

I can understand how your ADD can get in the way sweetie. I am learning after being diagnosed last week, that these things create hurdles, but they're not insurmountable. I actually haven't seen someone so eager to get involved in things like you've been in a long time Brandy. I would never know about ADD with you, because you seem so the opposite: organized, not lazy, not procrastinating on what you want to do in life. Setting goals. And all without a pricey doctor. So far I'm at the $400 dollar mark!

I wonder too if you hate these labels as much as I do. Being labeled ADD...

It took 2 years and 6 months to wean Youssef. Start ever so slowly at feeding him in the morning but not at night dear. Eventually, he will want to come off.

Reinforce everything with lots and lots of cows milk and dairy in general. Yogurt smoothies with frozen blueberries are my go-to. He'll end up dairyed out like Youssef did :)

I so want to hear what kind of business you want to open! You make me proud Brandy. Walahi, I come here and I just think there's nothing that a Muslimah can't do.

It's hard to keep the house straight when you have children who Alhamdulillah don't attend public school or daycare. Baby steps inshallah habibty. Maybe you can make a simple rule. Any toys without arms and legs have to go, unless you can find the arms and legs within 5 minutes :) And any toys that are past their expiration date like 0-9 months can go sice the kids hve passed those ages.

More room for your daughter's new clothes :)

Pez is a fun collectors item. Youssef had a bunch of Chinese lead-tainted Lightening McQueen cars that had to go. Maybe I'll do Pez. Strangely though, it seems like everytime I see Pez in Austin, they still have a bunch of Santa pez's in stock from Christmas. Ugh.

Lisa said...

It's hard to get kids to break free from all things Disney. I'm embarrassed to say that I'm an obsessed Disney fan who is taking Youssef to Disneyland July 15 (!) e're flying via Phoenix and will wave to your home-state :) I'm glad you are not in the States, and wonder how do you feel about taking the kids to Disney World? Is that something you wouldn't consider Islamically habibty?

Don't worry about your little gal doing ballet. I know this is hard, but she will need to move more towards the girl's world anyway as she nears 12.... This is a more seemless transition and she'll always have her karate and defense practice and probably love that more! She'll always be that girl. But, giving her a taste of the princessy, sparkly, girly world will make the transition into a fully female world easier inshallah. That is my wish for you Brandy dear.

Mashallah for your husband's business. I hope that as it grows, the money flows in a little more. But, since I am saving for Disneyland, I am finding that there's a lot you can save if you set your mind to it. Your food pyramids thing Brandy is such an awesome suggestion. You can buy lots of milk, eggs, and bread. We're eating grilled cheese sandwiches and they're amazing actually.

And you know, Brandy it feels good. It feels good to be saving for something bigger rather than spending on a tiny matchbox car. I really remember what you said about the 10 dollars we can spend eatng out, and it actually feels good not to right now.

I also am losing weight by putting more focus on feeding Youssef than myself.

I liked what you said about parents making sacrifices. You mean the world to me Brandy and I'm glad to see you in a good place right now. Stay cool and out of the sun. Love you very much for the sake of Allah. XOXO

Faith in Writing said...

So many changes!! And your daughter reading at 4, that is wonderful. You should be so proud of the good job you're doing.
Our baby girl has a barbie lounge she lies all over... but I cover the barbie with a rug of cute animals instead :)
I'm glad you're getting to see your hub more, but it must be a change. And TELL ME about the toys. Argh. If i get another gift of a toy I'll scream. We have 1 baby, 18mmonths and she already has way too many toys.
AND, a big CONGRATULATIONS on your getting published!! I'm so so pleased for you!! As a writer I can only imagine how that must feel. Your hard work must be paying off. Best wishes for the publishing :) :) :) !!!!!
And I've missed you!
Come back soon.

mummyjaan said...

Congrats on getting published.

Solace In Islam said...

What an exciting time for you and your family! Congratulations!

Anonymous said...

wooohooo! COngrats! And post some of your art! I'm dying to see! DYING. LOL

American Muslima Writer said...

Sacrifice, Aww masha'ALlah thanks for your kind words! Yes as soon as Marketing Division releases the info it will be from my lips to your ear habibi! I'll keep ya updated!

American Muslima Writer said...

Mama Kalila, awww insha'Allah your weaning will go easily later too.

I'm so glad you like my blogs, comments like this inspire me to keep it up :)

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